Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Years Eve - Bye Bye 2011

2011 has finally come to it's end. Can't believe how crazy of a year it has been. We have gone from a simple family of 3 to now a little crazy family of 4. I have been soooo blessed this year.

Now....everyone has some sort of resolutions when the new year rolls around. I have decided to make my short list of things I would like to try and accomplish this year. it goes...

1. Get into shape - I was doing so well with losing weight when I started my job last year, but of course, getting pregnant pretty much took that off course. SO, my goal this year is to get my lazy butt back into shape and MAYBE get back into pre pre-pregnancy weight.

2. Act like a girl - Since kids, I really have let myself go. I don't spend money on myself anymore. I only spend money on my kids. Well, this year I would like to treat myself, just a little more then what I have been. Maybe get my nails done or buy a new pair of shoes...something! Definately want to start acting more like a girl and present myself as such.

3. Be a better mother/girlfriend - even tho I think I AM the best mother & girlfriend, I do think I could improve. I think Ray and I need to try and take some time to do things together like we used to. Even tho, he is the one who never wants to do anything, I think if we have a date night of just us 2, life would be pretty good.

4. Be a better worker - I already have gotten in trouble at my job a few too many times. I really can't afford to lose my job, so my goal is to be a BETTER worker then what I was. As much as I really don't want to be at my job for the rest of my life, I do need this job to help pay the bills. I do, however, think I will be looking for another job on the side...possibly on the "down low" haha.

And that's it ladies and gents. Not a long list, but I feel that these are goals that I can accomplish and WILL accomplish. 2012 may be the "last year" we have, but I don't believe that. There will be great changes coming our way, and I want to welcome some of the ones that will be thrown at me.

New Years Eve

As for any plans for tonight, there really is nothing that I can do. I, will be stuck at home with the 2 blessings in my life. Ray is working all day today and won't be home until almost 11. Rather sad, but since there really is not too much happening, I don't really care. The Station will be having fireworks, but I believe that is all. I think drinking some champagne will be just fine :) I do hope to get back to work sometime in the next 3 weeks....but we will just have to see.

I should also say I want to be successful at breastfeeding.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve, ham is in the oven, and we're all finally at home. Ray got to work today and didn't get home until after 4.

I'm almost in just a bah humbug type of mood. We have 2 Christmas' to go to tomorrow, and I'm really not looking forward to it. I would much rather just stay home. I'm concerned about having to pump while at Ray's dad's house. Of course, Ray, being the 'caring' person that he is said "well, just go pump in the bathroom'...Are you fuckin' kidding me? Who the hell wants to sit in someone elses bathroom and pump for 30 minutes?? I sure as hell don't! That's rather disgusting if you ask me. Also, we don't have to be there until noon...yet he wants to be there at 11. WHY?! I guess we'll leave when my boobs say we can leave. I would rather be there as little as possible. I know, that's just terrible to say, but we're talking about me having to drag my pump all over the place and I would rather not have to pump while I'm there.

Then after his dad's we're going to his moms....oh joy. From what Ray keeps saying is that almost everyone is staying the night out there...but I really don't see that happening since we all have kids and a house full of them just isn't going to work.

Anyway, we're more then likely going to be having our little Christmas here tonight, then we'll just sleep in, in the morning because I guess we have to get ready to go rather then spending time with our OWN kids.

Man I'm just babbeling now. Anyway, I just want to stay home. I know I don't have much gas in the car, so I guess we'll have to see if the gas station is even open tomorrow. I would think they would be...I mean, it's a gas station. But it's Christmas.

Ok, so little William has definately started to fill out some. He's still a smaller guy, but he's definately gaining weight. He's taking about 3oz of breastmilk every feeding now.


I will say, reading about girls having trouble breastfeeding on the bump, makes me feel a little bit better. I remember when I was trying to breastfeed Colby, it seemed like everyone who was breastfeeding was successful at it and I was the only one who had given up. I felt like a complete failure at the time because I felt like the only person who just couldn't get breastfeeding down. It made the situation that much worse.

So, to all my friends and fellow bloggers who may just read this, let me just say. NEVER, EVER feel bad because you're body isn't doing what you want it to do. Don't let yourself get stressed out over it. Breastfeeding IS HARD! Pumping is a chore, and your boobs become heavy and sore and your shirts will get soaked from leaking when you don't want to pump. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for not continuing to breastfeed or pump. You just kindly say, "it didn't work out" and let it be.

I am breastfeeding again, and I feel like I'm doing better this time around. BUT I also am a little stressed out because I still have to get up and pump even when I bottle feed the little man. BUT I am doing better because I now have a great stash built up and I also have a pump that makes getting up in the middle of the night a little easier. Also I am happy to say that William has only had formula when he was at the hospital. He did have one formula bottle here at home, but that was on the first day and he hasn't had formula since.

I have to admit, I was really hesitent to even consider breastfeeding this time around, mostly because I was having so much trouble with Colby when he was that age. I'm glad I decided to give it chance.

I just hope everyone that does try breastfeeding, don't give up right away. But if you find yourself becoming stressed out & depressed, then don't continue. You will feel much better knowing that your child is getting fed rather then sitting and panicing because you're unsure if you're producing enough.

Anywho....I guess I'm just rambling now. Tomorrow is also a Packer game and I'm excited for that! OH YES! I also got my car fixed...FINALLY! haha.

Ok, Merry Christmas everyone!! And a very Happy Holidays!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Baby Must Haves

Yet again, my friend Lindsey has given me a great blog idea and I now will give my (short) list of baby must haves.

1. Infant Gowns
I have found with Will (and Colby) that these are GREAT! to have. Just lift the gown up and changing a diaper is a breeze! No pesky snaps or zippers to deal with. Will is stil a little small for the ones that we have for him, but they are 0-6 month gowns, they should last a little while.

2. Diaper Sacks
These little puppies are a good thing to have in your purse or diaper bag when you are out and about with baby. We actually will use these on Colby's diapers at home as well. Let me tell ya, I'm glad we do!

3. Breast Pump
This is something that every breastfeeding mother should get! --This just happens to be the one that I have-- My mother picked this little guy up for me so I could get a good freezer stash going. I would have to say that so far, this little bad boy has done pretty well. It's not the best pump out there, and def is not the one that I REALLY wanted, but it works for what I need. I have quite the freezer stash built up so far.

So there ya go. Those are a few of my must haves.....well I guess the only other thing would be a bouncy chair. My kiddo has LIVED in that thing. Having it vibrate on his little bum keeps him sleeping, quiet and happy. And let's mommy get some much needed sleep!!

Here Comes Santa Claus..

So today was the day that Betty Jo would be bringing Santa Claus with her to visit the kids. Now, let me tell you, when she asked me if I wanted to have Santa come and visit, I really didn't expect a whole lot. I figured, she would bring Santa, they would stick around for about 15-20 minutes, take come pictures and give the kids a candy cane & maybe 1-2 gifts. You know, just a few little things that every kid would like, not a big deal.

MAN, was I wrong! I was on my way home from the drs when they first got here, but I think they were here for a good 45 minutes. The guy playing Santa was super sweet and played his roll very well. And he didn't just come with 1-2 presents. He came with a whole tub FULL of presents! I couldn't believe it. I think both Colby and William got about 5-7 present each. And there were even a few little presents in there for Ray & I. OH, and then, the BIG gift that we got.....$100 gift card to our local grocery store. I think Ray & I's jaws about hit the floor. I have NEVER felt so blessed. I really was not expecting so much. I honestly wanted to cry. I'm really glad that BOTH my boys will have gifts to open on Christmas morning.

Drs Visit

So, before Santa came, I was in Holdrege at the drs with William. I'm a little unsure why she wanted to see him a second time, but I think she just wanted to make sure he wasn't still yellowish-orange. (he was a little jaundice, but nothing terrible). He checked out really well! Last week Thursday he was 7lbs 5oz and today he was 7lbs 12oz! He gained a whole 7oz in 4 days! Mama's little piggy boy :). She said everything with him checked out great and he wasn't as jaundice as he was before, so we don't go back for an entire month.

So glad that my little man is growing and gaining weight. But sad that he is already 9 days old. Today was my due date! I was sooo worried that he wouldn't be here yet. But, mommy got her Christmas gift early this year!!:) hehehe.

This week should be a pretty good one. Wednesday is the Secret Santa pot luck at work....well, it's actually a staff party with out Secret Santa gifts being exchanged. I was a little unsure of what I should bring to this since it askes that everyone bring a side dish, but I'm thinking that I will just bake a cake tomorrow and call it good. Me and William will be attending this party. Everyone just wants to see my little peanut....I don't blame them :).

Pregnancy Brain

I find it really funny that even tho I'm not pregnant any more, I still have been very very VERY forgetful. I feel terrible about it because I have just been so off my mark with the planning and organizing things that it's starting to drive me nuts. Also, on Wednesday, I have to take my car up to get it fixed...or atleast to see what the hell is wrong with it. I am a little pissed off about it because then I am stuck with Ray's truck..unless they give me a loaner car for the day or whatever. Which I doubt. All I want is for my car to get fixed. I will be soooooo pissed off if it's something majorly wrong. We may just have to go car shopping a little early this year. --which I would not be upset about at all :)--

Now, what kind of car will we get.....don't know for sure.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Sad Day In Packer Land

My Packers have offically lost for the first time this season....ugh. 14-19 to the KC Chiefs....sad day I tell you. But I won't be sad for long. Next week is a new game and we're on home turf! Packer Pride baby!

Being A Mom

It's super crazy to think that I am 26 years old and the mother of 2. Both of my boys, thus far, have been super easy kids. Colby is still adjusting to not having mommy jump up and do everything he wants me to do, right when he wants me to do it. ex. - having mommy put in his favorite movie when she is pumping or nursing baby. BUT he has adjusted really well to hearing baby cry and taking time away from him.

William is a SUPER easy baby. Atleast so far. He is up about every 2 -4 hours at night to feed and be changed, but since he is breastfed, this doesn't surprise me at all. My supply has been doing pretty well. My mother bought me a single pump and that has REALLY helped me get a freezer stash built up. I think that was a big problem that I had when I was breastfeeding Colby. I only had my manuel hand pump to use and after about 10 minutes, my arm would be killing me, so I basically got frustrated and gave up. This time, I am determined for it to be different. I want to make it work out, I don't want to give up. I only last about 5-6 weeks with Colby. I'm hoping to make it longer then this with William.

Parents Are Frustrating

So, while I am on the topic of breastfeeding, I have noticed that my mother has been very...I guess not very positive about my breastfeeding. I keep telling her I want to do it for as long as possible....or until Will gets teeth. Then rely on my freezer stash. Well, she keeps telling me that I should probably quit after about 3-4 months. Why? clue really. But either way, it's really discouraging to hear her talk like that. I will breastfeed for as long as my body will let me. And I don't see why that is an issue?

William has been a pretty good eater thus far. With Colby he seemed to gain weight really slowly. Will was 7lbs 11oz at birth and was 7lbs 5oz when we were discharged. He was 7lbs 5oz at his apointment on Thursday so that is a good note! I'm really hoping that he continues to gain weight and puts it on a little faster then what Colby did. I don't want him to be a "big" baby, but to atleast gain some weight. I get so annoyed with the whole "he's soo tiny" more then enough of it with Colby.

Isn't he just the cutest?? :) Anyway, off to pump and possibly end up changing a poopy diaper.

btw - I have YET to get peed on! My mother actually got peed on just the other day...well, the wall did anyway. Thanks Mom!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

1 Week Old

Can't believe my lil man is a week old already! They grow up waaaayyyy too fast. Like the picture of grandma an her 2 favorite grandsons? hehe

That was taken last night. Anyway, today has been a very loooong day. Been up since about 8 and haven't gotten a nap yet. Ray's dad & step-mom stopped in at around 10 and stayed for about an hour and a half. They had bought a dresser for's actually too big for the tiny room that the boys have, but she said she "just couldn't pass it up"...yeeeaaaahhh, well whatever. We'll make due with it because I don't want to seem ungrateful. I was a little annoyed by her tho. She just wanted to go through the whole house and see what else she could "buy" for us. Honestly, it was a little weird. She was even snooping in the bathroom and wanted to know if she could buy us a new medicine cabinet. *eye roll*

Well, besides them stopping in, my mother had made a run to Holdrege for us and picked up an electric roaster...and a few other house hold essentials. Just after Ray's dad and step-mom left my mother pulled in. Then we went down town to the thrift store. (I honestly, could LIVE there) We picked up a few things and I will have to remember to stop in Wednesday because they had some cookware things that I wanted. I'm addicted to that kind of crap.

After a little shopping, we all piled in the car and went to lunch. It's crazy to think that going out to lunch is going to take FOREVER now. I had to pump before we left and we had to get William changed & happy before we left. I guess it will get easier as he gets older.

After we ate we drove around town a little because my mother wanted to see where I worked. --don't ask me why that was so important, but to her it was--

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

A Lil Comparing

Thought I would show people just how much a like my kids look.

Looking at the 2 of them, they look like twins! It's pretty crazy. But I guess when you have a guy like Ray, it's bound to happen that your kids look a like.

Here is a little more of William.

I love his hat

I look like a cow! haha

Monday, December 12, 2011



Can't believe my little man is here already!!

I started having contractions around 5:30 Friday afternoon then around 6:30 I started timing then and they were pretty consistant. I was getting concerned because I couldn't get comfortable sitting, standing, laying down. Nothing. So I took a warm bath to see if that would help at all. It helped me relax, but definately didn't ease the pain of the contractions whatsoever. I decided that I should give Ray a call and tell him that I wasn't feeling super great and that I would be calling the hospital to see if they wanted us to come in or not. I wanted to wait until he was off of work and at home, but he wouldn't have been home until after 10.

So around 9 I decided it was time to call the hospital. They said that I should come on in and they would check me out. I called Ray, told him to get home so we could go. He, of course, was saying he still had atleast 45 minutes of work left but luckily a coworker told him to just go. So I got Colby ready to go, Ray got home, we grabbed a few things and off we went. I just kept contracting in the car on the way up so that really sucked.

When we got there about 10:15, they were ready for us, thank goodness. I got hooked up to the machine and after about 20 minutes of seeing my contractions they checked me and I was at 3 1/2 cm. So I basically was told I'm not going anyway. They hooked up my IV and I was having such hard & strong contractions it was hard to keep still for her to put that damn thing in.

Well, while they were doing all of that, and I was in massive pain, I could feel pee coming out when I would contract....let me just say, ick! They asked me if I was sure it was pee, and I said, yes, because it stops after a while. So, not too long after that....I'd say about 11:20 or so, I was having a hard contraction, and BOOM! water broke, EVERYWHERE...luckily, I had a blanket covering my legs because that stuff just exploded out of my crotch and all over the table. --not even being dramatic here..was like a thrown water balloon that hits the pavement-- It was clear, which is good. They checked me again and I was at 8 cm! Which basically meant, no epi! :( Had to go COMPLETELY med free. It was probably 11:30 by then? They called my dr and told her she was needed, and she was there about 10 minutes later. My nurse basically told me "This is going to go really fast, hun". She couldn't have been more right. Once the dr got there, we basically got set up and ready to push. I think I only had to push 4 or 5 times (pushing would be 3 pushes that are 10 seconds long) and the little man was born. I honestly thought he was never coming out, but I am sooo gosh darn proud of myself that I went med free.

Little William Douglas was born at 12:07am on 12/10/11 weighing 7lbs 11oz and 19 1/4 inches long. And he's just perfect.

Well, I will have to post more pictures later. But I am so happy my little man came early.....ANNNNNDDDD I will say that I am a true believer in the power of the full moon.

*I'd also like to thank Lindsey for the shout out on her blog! Thanks hun!! :)

Friday, December 9, 2011

Holy Nesting Batman!!

I am DEFINATELY in nesting mode. I've gone out, filled my gas tank, cleaned out my car, moved Colby's carseat to behind the driver, cleaned up Colby and William's room ANNNNNDDDDD set up our pack n play in our bedroom.

WOW...can't believe I've done ALL of that today, and it's just after 2:30. I actually would get up and do some more, but I think I just want to rest for a little while. I've asked Ray to take my car up and vaccum it out for me, but obviously, that will most likely not happen. I am also considering putting in the base for the infant seat, but I just don't feel like doing it lol. Well, atleast right now. It's actually rather nice outside, so I SHOULD take advantage of it while I can, but like I

Hmmm...oh yes, I've done all of these things today by MYSELF. Yes, myself. Ray has decided that he's just going to chill on the couch and watch me do everything. I asked him earlier to move the carseat and he decided he just wanted to watch tv with Colby....yea, thanks sweetheart, love you too.

Oh well, if you want something done (the right way), do it yourself. Well, he did help me a little with the pack n play, but that was mostly it. I've even considered doing dishes, but that is THE one chore I HATE I'll just have Ray do it :). --smart huh--


Last night, contractions were driving me CrAzY!!! But today, there really has not been any at all. Baby William has been more active today tho, so I'm in hopes that he is getting uncomfortable and wanting to get out. There still is a full moon and lunar eclipse tomorrow night, soooooo....we'll have to see. I may have to drag out my book on witchcraft and magic and see if there is anything that I can do or have my cousin do that could help induce labor. For those who don't know me very well, I'm very much into paganism. I've done a few things that have turned out bad, but not completely terrible, that have made me a true believer in earthly magic. It's crazy how things like that work. I get nervous to do these things myself because of those experiences, but I am sure my cousin and a few of her friends could work their magic for me.

Things like this have always been interesting to me. Many will say you're crazy, BUUUUUTTTTT if you believe there is a God, then why couldn't there be earthly magic controlling things?? Seems silly to me to tell someone they are crazy to believe when they believe something that is just as "out there".

Anyway, nothing else to say, just starting to get a few contractions and pains from sitting here, so I think I will laydown for a while and then figure out what ELSE I can do today.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Contractions Contractions Contractions, Oh My!

I am REALLY starting to get annoyed with all these damn contractions that I have been having. I know they are basically Braxton Hicks, but's REALLY getting old. I think William has dropped a little more also because walking at work was starting to KILL me!

I am a little worried as my car has been acting up and then it is freaking snowing...grrrr. As pretty as the snow is, and I have the next 3 days to sit at home and just stare at it, I'm REALLY hoping there isn't anymore coming. With the full moon and lunar eclipse happening Saturday night....last thing I want is for a freaking snow storm. My neighbor (who is also my co-worker) said "I don't want to have to be coming over to deliver your baby!" haha. Trust me Carmen, I don't want that either! I need to be at the hospital because of GBS+ so delivering at home is NOT in my birth plan whatsoever.

I also got a little scared when I went to break today. I noticed that I had a phone call from my Drs office. --GREAT-- I thought. I had blood drawn so I was worried that there may have been something wrong or that she wasn't going to be around on Tuesday so we'd have to change days....just something. Luckily, her nurse left me a message and all she said was that my blood work came back normal. LOL. Thanks! Glad to know lol.

Taco Thursday

I'm thinking tonight is a taco kind of night. I'm not really wanting to have ham or left over sloppy joes, so I think tacos sound like a winner to me :). I also think that with all these contractions, maybe a little spicy food will continue to seemed to work before. haha.

I'm just ready to meet William. I'm ready for him to be here and I'm ready to bring him home. Last night I was looking at his 4D ultrasound pictures and just kept saying..please, please come join us! But, this child, like his parents, has proven to be very stubburn, and will come when HE is ready.

I'm also in debate....should we buy Will a Christmas present?? I'm not too sure if this is something we SHOULD do or just something we could do. I may just let him get gifts from others, and I mean, I think all the clothes and things that I've bought for him already should be enough of a gift.

Anyway, not much else to say. 2 more days of working (next week) and then I'm done! Unless baby decides to come before then. Come on moon!! Help me out!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Houston, We Have Dialation!

Went in for my 38 week check up today and we have dialation! I'm at 1cm and my cervix is starting to soften & is long. BUT it's still REALLY high, which suchs for being checked because she basically has to reach up to my throat to check it. But that's ok. I've been eating a little more spicy food lately (Chili, jambalya, jalapenos) to try and help with labor. --I know these things don't REALLY work, but here's hopin'!!-- I think all that it has done for me is given me terrible gas! haha. But, as many have been saying there is a full moon this Saturday AND a lunar eclipse....sooooo you never know!

Hmm...not too sure what else has been going on. Today I plan on getting the baby room picked up and a little more organized. Right now I can't even imagine bringing baby home to the mess that is in that room. But soon! Soon there will be a 4th person in this tiny little house and I couldn't be more excited!


Sunday my Packers played the New York Giants. OOHH Man was it a GREAT game!! It came down to the last few seconds and luckily our team was able to make it close enough to the goal that we were able to kick an easy field goal for the win. OOOOHHHH MAN! I'm sooooo freakin' excited that my team has done soo well this year! I am a little worried that I'll be in labor during one of my games....I know, how silly is that?....but I have no idea what channels the hospital does get and if I'll miss the game or not.

But we'll just have to wait and see if baby Will decides to come on a Packer game day or if he just decides to come a few days early like his brother.